Radiotherapy.

Assalamualaikum and here we are again. I'm officially starting my radiotherapy treatment tomorrow. So, so, nervous, but nevertheless, I'm wishing and praying to Allah that it will all go smoothly and well. Amin.. I'll be starting it tomorrow morning. So, wish me luck. :) Bye. :)

Salam Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Assalamualaikum again to everyone, I just want to wish everyone a great Ramadhan Al Mubarak. May we use this time to improve every single perspective in life, for the future and to improve the past. :) Selamat berpuasa. :) <3

hello~

Assalamualaikum everyone. Its been quite a while since my last post, and today I'm going to post basically what I have been up to, other than nothing. So basically, I went for preparation for treatment and had a gap of 10 days. Basically in the 10 days, I've been spending time with my family as well as friends: Cheenyca, Emme, Zah and Zati.

Other than that, I've been keeping in touch as much as possible with almost everyone. Recently, I just went through Skype with Mal, Mash, Amrina, Eyah as well as viber with Tini. I went on FaceTime as well with my sister who is currently in Brunei. Other than that, I went out shopping with my mum and officially got myself a 2NE1 DVD and CD. (really happy with it)

Other than that, I've done nothing much. But yeah, that's that. :)

Honest Mistake

The photo is the one posted on my Instagram. So yeah. :) that one. Hahah thanks

NCC Trip.

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum. :) So this will be a big update. As I update everyone about something. Well today I went to NCC (National Cancer Centre) and met up with the doctor from the Oncology Centre. So what is going on now is that I’ll be going for scans tomorrow and Friday. So that they can see where to expose the radiation and all. We even talked about the side effects, where it is said that at a LOW percentage, that in 20-40 years time, it is rare though that another cancer or the same one coming back. Now I really hope this doesn’t come back. Because really, I hope not. Then there was the side effect where at the slightest chance as well that it could hit the spinal cord. And spinal cord is basically well, mostly everything. But, this is rare to happen. Also, I was explained that there will be a slight burn, not really a burn lah, its like getting a tan in the beach. Sore throat chances are most likely. So water is extremely encouraged for as consumption. Some other long term effects were mentioned, but I’ll just write that out of this post.
So as for the radiotherapy, it is expected to be on 1/7. I'm expected to have 17 Sessions (Every week: Monday-Friday). Every time it will be for 10-15 minutes of radiation. So, yeah. Huhu..
I can’t say that I’m not scared. Without a doubt, fear grew within me, but however, this is the test from Allah, and everything comes from Him. I believe that this is the test He has given me and knows I’m capable of going through this InsyaAllah. But insyallah, with patience and strength as well as prayers especially, InsyaAllah, everything will go smoothly. Having posted this, I would like everyone, whoever you are, wherever you are, whenever you can after reading this, help me by praying for the best, pray for all the safety and as well as for this treatment to go smoothly. I really want to get this over and done with. This is the last battle. Hopefully. Amin. Amin. Amin.
Assalmualaikum.:)

Here I Am.

Assalamualaikum to who ever is reading this, wherever you may be, whatever time it is. Its been quite a while, and previously, my last post was about me going for my chemo. So, now that its June, guess what? I made it through with chemo. So I finally decided to go on blogging to personally tell what has happening, what I've experienced, as well as, what is going on now. 4 Cycles of chemo. 4 months of chemo. It was living hell. No one but cancer patients would understand the exact hell I'm talking about. Having to vomit 'nothing' at the same time eat to fill the empty tummy was how this nausea feeling put a living pain. Nevertheless, I'm thankful for those "pain" has cured me mostly. Having to not spend the time with my other friends, not socializing as usual, not having school majority of the time basically felt different. Of course, who would really be so used to it instantaneously. But these past few months, despite going through chemo, I've learned so many things that practically changed my life. Not that I'll mention it here, but basically it involved in really putting an effect in my life that I'll never forget. All those times missed this year, could be and would be worth it in the end, I told myself. All those "pain", those misery, will finally pay off soon insyallah. Right now, losing my hair, losing weight (17KG), I tell myself, all this will be back. Well maybe not the weight, I would love to maintain it. hahah But basically, I've been eating healthy, not eating any sweet things, and only have been drinking water and some fresh orange juice. I do miss the chocolate and all, but yeah. Its ok. :) Basically, now, I just wanna say how thankful I am, to my family, my friends, my teachers, both from SGS as well PTEM, not forgetting the nurses and doctors who has been helping me fight this part 1 battle. It was an easier process thanks to you guys. throughout these 4 months, the things you guys did for me will be unforgettable as well as something I would never forget. THANK YOU SO MUCH and MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU. Now? Well, I'm in Singapore at a hotel's internet lounge, typing out my life basically. I'm finally doing the last part of my battle: Radiotherapy. How long RT will be? Not sure, but I'll be here for quite a while. Till then, I ask for prayers of helping me to get through this smoothly. Amin Amin. Thank You.

Ji Hyo & Choi Jin Hyuk

So I went to Singapore last month to go for the Emergency Couple meet and greet. Went there with my sister, and so there were pictures. :) Copyrights to Fast Track Events. :)