Time (24.08.15)

For time that never wants to pause,
All these days, passing by without a cause,
The lights and pitch black that fills my air,
Causes my breathing to be in despair,

For time that never wants to pause,
The sky repeats the cycle with galaxy's force,
But all my head does is the opposite,
Calling out the past, differentiating as I feel the sins like shit,

For time that never wants to pause,
Why? How? When? and What did it cost?
With a heart that drowns breathlessly in the sea and sky watching you,
Just like how the good and sins makes me, like a fool, searching for endless clues,

For time that never wants to pause,
Searching for a cause even when I put on my shirt, make up, gloss,
Is this right? Is this wrong?
Only bearing to take a pen and write doubts all night long,

For time that never wants to pause,
Why am I feeling such drowse,
Caught in the dark with thoughts haunting in sight,
Fighting with questions as it darkens the night,

For time that never wants to pause,
Light and dark makes you want to cry,
With or without a cause, still feeling lost,
Questioning to live or to die?

For time that never wants to pause,
To make choices in the seconds You give,
Never will my thoughts make sense like logic and rules made by laws,
So the intention to make one without being deceived,
Is impossible to achieve because of the withdraws,
As I understand the limited time; telling me to forgive and to live.